Mother's Day Weekend...blah!

So...my attempt at blogging apparently crashed and burned. Let's try again, shall we? I'm not in a very chipper mood at the moment. First of all, it will be Mother's Day this coming Sunday. Too bad it feels like we celebrate for the entire freakin' month!! I'm so tired of hearing about Mother's Day! I don't want to celebrate bc of course I have nothing to celebrate. I miss my mom so much and this day/week/month (sheesh!) is just making me more aware of the fact that she isn't here. I don't think anyone understands how I feel other than Janna. My dad is making me go to the cemetery tomorrow and I am less than thrilled about it. I do not want to go at all. That isn't where Mom is and I think it is pointless to go there. All it does is upset me but he makes me feel guilty about not going. Next year we are going out of town. No way I am going to do this 2 years in a row. I think I actually did this last year too but I honestly can't remember. Eh...not something I care to remember anyway. I just realized that this post is pretty much sad and pathetic. Those of you that still have your mom won't understand this at all. Most people just choose to ignore the fact that my mom passed away. I guess they think it is easier if they don't bring it up. I think it is selfish. It would be nice if someone asked if I was doing ok or if anyone acted concerned in the least. Hmmm. Oh well. I am only responsible for my actions. I forgive everyone but I will never forget how they forgot about Mom and didn't care enough to make sure I was ok. I'll be the first to admit that I don't answer phone calls like I should. A letter or card would have been nice though. Again, oh well. It just goes to show who really cares about you. On a positive note, Alli is lying beside me in the bed right now. She always seems to know when I need her to love on me. :)