Mother's Day Weekend...blah!

So...my attempt at blogging apparently crashed and burned. Let's try again, shall we? I'm not in a very chipper mood at the moment. First of all, it will be Mother's Day this coming Sunday. Too bad it feels like we celebrate for the entire freakin' month!! I'm so tired of hearing about Mother's Day! I don't want to celebrate bc of course I have nothing to celebrate. I miss my mom so much and this day/week/month (sheesh!) is just making me more aware of the fact that she isn't here. I don't think anyone understands how I feel other than Janna. My dad is making me go to the cemetery tomorrow and I am less than thrilled about it. I do not want to go at all. That isn't where Mom is and I think it is pointless to go there. All it does is upset me but he makes me feel guilty about not going. Next year we are going out of town. No way I am going to do this 2 years in a row. I think I actually did this last year too but I honestly can't remember. Eh...not something I care to remember anyway. I just realized that this post is pretty much sad and pathetic. Those of you that still have your mom won't understand this at all. Most people just choose to ignore the fact that my mom passed away. I guess they think it is easier if they don't bring it up. I think it is selfish. It would be nice if someone asked if I was doing ok or if anyone acted concerned in the least. Hmmm. Oh well. I am only responsible for my actions. I forgive everyone but I will never forget how they forgot about Mom and didn't care enough to make sure I was ok. I'll be the first to admit that I don't answer phone calls like I should. A letter or card would have been nice though. Again, oh well. It just goes to show who really cares about you. On a positive note, Alli is lying beside me in the bed right now. She always seems to know when I need her to love on me. :)

Soul Therapy

This was the topic at church today. By the way, we attend Church of the Highlands and it is awesome. If you don't have a church or if you aren't happy with the church you attend then you should definitely check it out. It puts me in a good mood just to walk through the doors on Sunday! Pastor Chris spoke on addiction today. Not about drugs or alcohol necessarily but about anything that you put all of your focus on whether it be Facebook, twitter, shopping, or food. It made me think how I've been addicted to food this past year. In my defense though, my stress level has been through the roof. I got married, lost my mom, and changed jobs all in 1 year. Apparently, I turned to food without even realizing it. Here I am 40 lbs heavier and miserable about it. Things have already begun to change though. I'm eating healthier and exercising. Sure it has only been one week but I am hopeful this time about the change. Peyton met his goal at work (yay!)and we are going to Mexico (all expenses paid!) with some of his coworkers in 79 days. I am more than determined to lose weight by then! I'm even logging my food into a diary that my friend has access to. How's that for accountability?! I know I have set a huge goal but I'm going to do my best to reach it. Have you set any new goals lately?

Blogging: Day 1

Well, I'm not sure this whole blog thing is for me but I'm going to give it a go anyways. First off, I should probably tell you a little about myself. This is my year of 30. Meaning, I will turn 30 in December. Yeah, yeah...I know that it is only January but it is constantly in the back of my mind. A tad scary but not nearly as scary as I thought it would be. I've been happily married for a little over a year. No kids yet but hopefully one day soon. I have wonderful friends and a wonderful family minus one of the most important people in my life - my Mom. There is a lot to say about her and I'm not really in the mood right now so more to come on that later. All you need to know is that she is/was absolutely awesome, hangs out with Jesus all day long now, and is the inspiration behind the title of my blog. I'm her legacy and that is profound to say the least. Those of you who knew her know that I have pretty big shoes to fill. I guess it is time to sink or swim, but I think I'll just dog-paddle for now. ;)